If & When

by Lana Winterhalt

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released October 12, 2018

Produced by Elessar Thiessen in Winnipeg, MB, CAN.
All instrumentation by Lana Winterhalt, Elessar Thiessen, and Janaya Salmond.
Copyright Lana Winterhalt Music 2018, all rights reserved.

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Track Name: If You Were Mine (Intro)
If you were mine I wouldn't need silver or gold
If you were mine I wouldn't be afraid of growing old
If you were mine I wouldn't need anything
If you were mine, if you were mine

If you were mine my skies would always be blue
If you were mine the flowers would always be in bloom
If you were mine my heart would always be glowing
If you were mine, if you were mine
If you were mine I would feel sparkling and weightless, forever, for all of time
Track Name: The Dark
In the dark, in the dark
In the dark I seem to find my madness
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark I find relief
Dim the lights, close my eyes, I want to feel romantic
Close the blinds so that I can manufacture my own release

Kill my conscience, numb the truth

In the dark in the dark, in the dark I find I'm walking backwards
Clench my fists, brace myself, for the fall I can't forsee
Break my neck, break my arms so I can't get better
'Cause when I'm healed I'll go back and manufacture my own release

Feed my conscience with the truth

I will leave my youth will follow me into my brightest years
Years will fade away, my friend, my foe, despite my brightest days

In the dark, in the dark , in the dark I find my madness
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark I find relief
In the dark, in the dark, I find I'm walking backward
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark I find release
Track Name: Maybe I'm Just Tired
Maybe I’m confused from all the voices in my head
maybe I'm confused from all the things we left unsaid
Or maybe I'm just tired, maybe I’m just tired

Maybe I have realized we weren’t quite prepared
Maybe I was young and you were dumb and we were scared
Or maybe I’m just tired
Maybe I’m just tired

You don’t want me like I want you
Like I want you to
You don’t need me like I need you
Like I need you to

Maybe I was reading into every little glance
Maybe I was foolish when I thought I had a chance
Justify your cold shoulder, maybe you are just tired?

You don’t want me like I want you
Like I want you to
You don’t need me like I need you
Like I need you to

Oh I need some time to reconcile you heart and mine
Oh I need some space to find the words that bring you grace
Oh I need some time to reconcile you heart and mine
Oh I need some space to find the words that bring you grace

You don’t want me like I want you
Like I want you to
You don’t need me like I need you
Like I need you to
Track Name: Rich White Kids
I’ll buy two tickets to anywhere, please come with me
I’m so sick of these rich white kids talking like they have all the answers, we’re all just fools
You ask me how I’m doing, I don’t want to scare you
I am starting to understand why people wanna float through the ceiling
so I tell you I’m okay

But if I stand tall enough, I can almost see the light

I wrote a poem while you were sleeping, I never do that
Im afraid if I don’t get all my words out before I fall asleep, my dreams will haunt me
I think I’m going to quit my job, even though I like it
I’m afraid to walk downtown with strangers I know nothing about
Will I be on the news?

But if I stand tall enough, I can almost see the light
I think we should move away from Winnipeg?
Or is it like this everywhere, and I’m just unaware
But if I stand tall enough, I can almost see the light

And if I reach far enough, I can almost feel the warmth
And I think I’m just one of those rich white kids that I tried to get away from
Track Name: Believe Me
Believe me, I tried to offer you the very best
Believe me, I tried to give you what you needed
Track Name: Dream
Lay down your weapons and lay down your pride Take off your armor I’m sure you’ll be fine
Give me your secrets and I’ll give you mine

And we’ll dream side by side And we’ll dream side by side
And we’ll Dream And we’ll Dream And we’ll Dream

Opened my heart so that you’d come inside Don’t be afraid I promise to be kind
Give me your secrets and I’ll give you mine

And we’ll Dream And we’ll Dream And we’ll Dream And we’ll Dream

You don’t have to worry
You’ll never be lonely
I’ll be your baby

Give me your secrets and I’ll give you mine
Track Name: Tell Me It'll Be Okay
Tell me it'll be okay when I get up tomorrow
Tell me that the sun will shine on me, it's okay
Tell me that the time will come when this will all be over
Tell me that the sun will shine on me, it's okay
Track Name: Nice For a While
I’m happy now I’ve got a boy who makes me feel alright
I don’t need you, but I’m wondering how you’re doing
Do you still remember me like I remember you
Do you think of me when you hear that Beatles song on the radio

I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?
I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?

I still have that picture from our first date
We were both a little bit skinnier back then, than we are now
But I kept it ‘cuz it reminds me of the way that we felt
It really wasn’t anything special, just your high school romance that lasted the summer
But I still get fire in my cheeks when I see a car like yours

I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?
I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?

You weren’t the one, and we weren’t in love
But you gave me what I needed, for a little while
I miss your hair and the way that we laughed
I don’t wanna be your girl, but it was nice for a while

I miss your stories, and the way that you talked about your parents romance
Like it was everything good in the world
I miss your smile and the way you made life feel so innocent and beautiful
And I don’t wanna be your girl but you gave me so much

I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?
I wanna know are you doing okay? Did the things that you hope for all turn out that way?
Track Name: Silver & Gold
Since I was a young girl
My heart yearned for something
Something it couldn’t create

And as I got older
I bent over backwards
Stretching to see what they saw

And the movies told me he would sweep me off my feet
And my history showed me how to accept defeat

Like silver and gold, my heart longs for things it’s never known
My soul sings for imaginary things like silver and gold


Now maybe like the old days
I could learn contentment
With less than I thought was alive
Or maybe in my old age
I'll have learnt the beauty
In living a life alone

And the radio told me I should give it all away
And the movies taught me he may come, but he won’t stay

Like Silver and gold, my heart longs for things it’s never known
My soul sings for imaginary things like silver and gold, silver and gold, silver and gold

Hopeless, I found you and you found me, and you showed me
True heartbreak, and true healing, and memories, worth feeling
In speaking and being, I feel it, within me
And I wonder, could this be what all my songs are about?

Silver and Gold, my heart longs for things it’s never known
My soul sings for imaginary things
Like silver and gold
Track Name: If & When (Outro)
And for now, I don't have any more songs of a heartbreak of my own
'cause you gave me a home
If, and when, the dust resettles on our bones
I'll sing you back home, oh

It'll be sweet, and loud, and I'll remind you you're my silver and gold
You make me unafraid of growing old
The sky is blue, the flowers bloom, and you are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine

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